I am all over the place tonight.  I have a  lot going on in my busy brain.  And truth be told, I am not in the best of moods.  I don’t like it when this happens.

I feel a little bit guilty when I get upset over things.  I mean, comparatively, to a lot of other people, these “things” are pretty inconsequential.   But I’ve had four or five, right in a row, and it is making me a little cranky around the edges.

You know, I should have seen it coming, first thing this morning.  I went out early to feed the chickens.  I hadn’t let them out of their coupe yet.  I was walking out that way, and I heard something getting killed in the wooded area, just on our northern property line.

Whatever it was, was dying a horrible death.  It could have been a cat, or maybe a rabbit.  I don’t know.  But something had it.  And it wasn’t turning out so good on the receiving end.

Of course, these things make me horribly sad.  And a bit nervous.  I had also just let our dogs out, and I didn’t know where our two little ones were.  I could see Frances out by our barn.   As it turned out, our dogs were all back safe and sound near the house.  But it put me on edge.

And sad.  I know this is all  a part of “nature” and the cycle of life.  Somehow, it just doesn’t make it any easier to take.  My mind jumps right to “being in their shoes” and I can’t help but to imagine the pain and fear they must be experiencing.  I am pathetic, like that.

The first couple of hours of my day were just as happy as could be.   But then, at sunrise, it all started going in the crapper.  And it just kept rolling downhill from there.  Of course, I mentioned that an overwhelming feeling of guilt washes over me, when I get all bent out of shape over these things, which aren’t much more than bothersome.   So.  Old Sulky here is writing about being sulky.

It is apparent that the only thing to do right now, is to turn that old frown upside down.  Yep.  Pull up the bootstraps.  Straighten up and fly right.  All that Holy Crap.  How does it go?  Fall down seven times, get up eight.

Easier said than done.  Which might be my point to all of this.  Things are easier said than done.  And according to the quote-makers… it is my own darn fault.  Sooooooo  ……. … …… …. I’ll get back to feeling snappy any little minute soon, I am sure.  But until then…. Cranky Kronenberger signing off.

Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.
— Dalai Lama

 Happiness depends upon ourselves.
— Aristotle

Happiness is not a matter of intensity but of balance, order, rhythm and harmony.
— Thomas Merton