There is a whole, whole lot I really like about being human. Beef Jerky, and reruns of Underdog, to name a couple. Not to mentions farmland at sunset, mountainous vistas, majestic waterfalls…. and Sausage Dip…. with Tostitos. But there are certain things about all of this…… that I just do not understand.

I mean… I understand that is ALL a part of being human. I guess, in truth, I just don’t like some things about it. Things I don’t agree with. Things happening in the world which seem incredibly wrong to me. Yet. All a part of life.

To continue, the thing that worries me the most is that life is …. ultimately … insecure.

Life is precarious. Of course it is. Every minute can be pretty uncertain. Intellectually, I understand that.

But my difficulty is that I EXPECT to feel secure. I put a big bunch of energy into achieving control and having everything “just right.” But….. quite naturally we as humans have very little to say about what the universe will do next.

The old Boogie Man called Fear.

With me… it mostly has to do with keeping the ones I love out of harm’s way. Myself, too. Keeping our place in the world safe and together…. happy and settled. While we watch reruns of Underdog, and eat Sausage Dip.

And those that know…. well….. they say that talking about our fears with others… and facing them… is a good way to get over them. I am not so sure that is true. But at least now you all know what a big weenie I am.

Or maybe it was just some sort of confession and I didn’t know it when I was writing this. Just as I finished, I stumbled upon a site called “Confessions”…..

Sooooo…… here is a late addition to this post.

There is a woman named Candy Chung, and she did an artistic installation called Confessions. She left blank placards, and encouraged exhibit goers to write down a confession as part of the work.

She turned a “gallery into a contemplative experiment around anonymity, vulnerability, and understanding in the heart of the Las Vegas strip. Over 1500 confessions were displayed on the walls: I still love her two girlfriends and five years later, I’m scared I’ll die alone, I eat too much cheese, Came here married to one girl and left married to two girls, I sold heroin to my friend and it ruined his life, I stole over 15,000 from the company I work for, I like porn more than my husband does…….”

Ahhhh. The Universe. At work all the time.

“The mistake is thinking that there can be an antidote to the uncertainty.” ― David Levithan

“Maturity, one discovers, has everything to do with the acceptance of ‘not knowing.” ― Mark Z. Danielewski